So it's been months...

I haven't written anything for months now. NO particular reason. Just didn't want to.
I've been quite busy lately. Working, seeing amazing plays (aka jesus christ superstar with TED NEELEY!!!!) and trying to stay sane.
I don't check this a whole lot anymore, so if everyone wants to stay in touch and I don't have them on MSN, my email is plaughersquared@hotmail.com

So my birthday yesterday. I had a great day, but I notice that a certain skank didn't even post something on my facebook or anything. I never expected a phone call from anyone, except my friend Kathrin, and she called, but it's nice to have people who are friends at least think about you enough to post a facebook message or call, and if I recall she made a big deal about not getting 20 million phone calls on her birthday. That sounds a bit hypocritical doesn't it? And I did post a facebook message on her profile... Just stating a fact. NOt bitter or anything ; )

As I start to type this, I really don't know what to say, but I feel like getting some stuff out. I don't know what's wrong with me. I want to cry, but I can't. I want to scream at people, but I can't. I really want to tell people how I feel, but I can't. I don't know what to do, other than feel depressed, but obviously, that's not what I want. I don't want to be the unhappy, depressing to talk to person. But that's who I turn out to be a lot of the time.
I honestly don't even know why I'm feeling so bad. I haven't felt good for a few days, but other than that, nothing big has happened. I've stayed home, watched tv, and just got the rest that I didn't get, all last semester. What's wrong with that, right? Well I don't know. BUt something, because I feel worse than I did a lot of days when I was in BG. And normally, if that happened, I'd have a good cry, and for some reason, right now, I can't. I can't physically cry.
I think part of what makes this so bad is the fact that I know I shouldn't feel this way. I mean, I'm healthy, I have friends who care about me, family who cares about me, and as much as I may overdramatize all the stuff going on right now, it's really not that bad. What's going on? A little drama at church, which I've been through before. I can handle it. Also, a few annoyances from my family, dad especially. But nothing I didn't deal with last year, and it'll get better as soon as I go back to school.
I wish I knew what was going on, and why I feel this way. But I really have no idea. And I wish it would stop.

Merry Christmas!!!!!!!! And shun the non-believers...SSSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!
Come on, Charlie...

So I just got back from juries. It went so well!!!I'm so happy. I had the best day. I didn't have class, I got my paper done with 2 hours to spare, I got to read, I got enough sleep, my juries went well, I ordered pizza, and now I'm watching a show called MOnty Python at his best. IT's amazing!!!! I'm so slap happy right now...

I AM SOOOOOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!! I talked to my parents today cause I want to go to Manchester, TN over break for a few days, to visit some friends from camp. And they said yes. Some way or another, I will be there!!! I miss those guys so much. I miss camp. And I miss Jared and Steve and Will, and Drew and Rachel, and Kathrin.... the list goes on and on. I can't believe I will be able to see most of them in about 2 weeks!!!

My house, Friday at 6 ish or so. Be there. lol. And on Saturday, Megan and I are going to go to Kewpee. If anyone else is interested, let us know, and we can decide on a time. See you on Friday.