So my viola teacher really wants me to audition at BG because he teaches there. I really don't want to but it would be some good experience, but I found out that it is all day, with a meeting at 10:00 in the morning, and then a theory placement test, and then the actual audition. And I can't just go for the audition. I didn't even want to go to Bowling Green, and now I have to take a 2 hr long test, just in case I go there. How stupid is that.
I am so tired all the time. I don't understand why either. I fell asleep at 8:15 last night, and I had trouble getting up this morning. I mean how much sleep do I have to get to finally be rested?
I got a new bed recently and it's nice. It's definately better than before when I was sleeping on the couch. I don't know what's going on.
My birthday is in 2 days. Yes! I can't wait but the problem is that I have a concert and band that day. I think that I will skip band at Northern and we will go out to eat, and then go to the concert. I think it will be a good concert. It's instrumental ensembles. I think there is woodwind ensembles, brass, and string ensembles. Obviously, I 'm in the string group.
I have to go to German class. My class is the biggest bunch of idiots I've ever seen. Except for Alex McClintock, and a few others, I can't stand them. Oh well. It is definately better than my other classes.
Talk to you later.

I just remembered that the day after tomorrow is Februcherry. WooHoo!
And the day after that I will be officially an adult. It's my 18th birthday!

When will I Be loved?

I've been cheated, been mistreated
When will I be loved?
I've been put down.
I've been pushed 'round
When will I be loved?
(Verse:)
When I find a new man that I want for mine,
it always breaks my heart in two.
It happens every time
I've been made blue.
I've been lied to.
When will I be loved?
(Back to Verse:)
I've been cheated,
been mistreated
When will I be loved?
I've been put down.
I've been pushed 'round
When will I be loved?

Problems

problems, problems, problems all day long
will my problems work out right or wrong
my baby don't like anything i do-o-o my
teacher seems to feel the same way too
worries, worries pile up on my head
woe is me i should have stayed in bed
can't get the car
my marks ain't been so go-o-ood
my love life just ain't swingin' like it shou-ou-ould
problems, problems, pro-o-o-o-blems
they're all on account-a my lovin' you like i do-o-o-o-o
problems, problems, pro-o-o-o-blems
they won't be solved until i'm sure of you-o-ou
you can solve my problems with a love that's tru-u-e
problems, problems, problems all day long
problems, problems, problems all day long

I'm wearing my German shoes today. They are the best shoes in the world.

Why do Wimmers and Hilleary never miss a chance to screw me over? On Tuesday night there was pep band, and for some reason this year the senior pep band members get to participate in senior night. I wasn't there because of orchestra, but mom and dad were. But anyway, they didn't announce that I was in it or anything. In fact, they only had that I had been to one game. I have been to all of them except 3. So my mom was ticked and went to talk to them. And Wimmers brought up contest. Bad idea. He started to blame me for it. But mom wasn't going to fall for his crap, and she made him admit that he wasn't doing his job. Not that it did any good, like him apoligizing, or saying anything except for "Yah, You're right" but it's the principle. I said to her that I thought it would also probably be a big fight for them to include me in the band banquet too, and she said that she already talked to them about it. So, I may be in the band banquet after all.

The weirdest thing happened to me yesterday. I was going home from Orchestra practice, and I was going to my car. In the hallway, one of the guys was standing there, and when I went past him, he grabbed my shoulder. I didn't mind, not like with that guy in A-team, but it's just that he's never done something like that before. I talked to Kathrin about it last night, and she said it was because he was flirting. But I've only talked to him about 5 times ever. I knew him when I was in 8th grade, and he was a senior, and then I see him this year. The only times that I've talked to him, were in the elevator, on the way out to my car after string ensemble. It's just really weird. Maybe it's the thought of someone flirting with me. It's just that I have only known guys that treat me like dirt. Or they are my "Friends". It's just weird.
I forgot to mention that after he grabbed my shoulder, he started to say something. He tried to say something, and failed is more like it. He started gibbering, and I was like "what?" and he said nevermind, it's not important. What was that about?

Contest is Feb. 4. It's going to be really bad. I haven't practiced once with my mallet ensemble, and they've only practiced once together. Precious Nick, the guy Wimmers hired to do his job, hasn't showed up for like two months. The last time he came was before Christmas. I wonder how much Wimmers is paying him. Whatever amount it is, it's too much.

Gees, I can't believe that everyone has such a problem with moving somewhere where I will be happier. Yes I'll miss you guys a lot, and I've already said that many times, but what's the difference. The only time I see anybody now is basically at holidays, and at least for a few years I will still be home on holidays.

Anyway, not that I'm bitter.

I have so many things today. My viola teacher wants me to audition at BG on Feb. 11. There's no way that I would want to go there, but I guess it's good experience. I have to call someone today about getting a time to audition. I also have to work on a stupid German project, and go to the post office. I should go to Wal-mart and get things for my lunch while I'm home during the day, and I need to get my hair cut and pick up my new glasses. I'm not entirely sure that I'm going to remember them all.

I heart Mrs. Morris. I took Comp Apps. last semester, and now, I have a study hall, even though I'm only here until 4th mod. A couple of days ago, I went to get my schedule, and find out where my study hall was. When I went to talk to Mrs. Briley about why I wasn't on her list, she asked me if I wanted to help Mrs. Morris tutor kids. She has a bunch of kids down here to help. And she will let us talk, get on the computer, or whatever. It's great.

I'm so glad that it is almost the weekend. No more school for another 2 days. Yes!!!
No offense but you have no choice in the matter of us moving. You have no idea how much I hate people in this horrible place. You really don't know how much I've been through. I would like nothing better than to leave and never come back. Unfortunately I don't have that option. Next year, I'll be home for holidays, which is about the amount I see you all now. I will also be home for the summer. And once I get to school, I'll have access to the internet, so I will be able to get on as much as I want. At least until I graduate from college, we will still see each other. After that, I'm sure that you guys won't all stay in Ohio. But I will still keep in touch, and maybe you could visit us.

We cancelled school yesterday because of snow. It was nice to be able to stay home for a while before I had to go to Northern.
On Monday, I e-mailed the new director for Youth Orchestra. I told him that I didin't want to be a part of it anymore. He wasn't too happy but I don't care. There have been two practices where no one has showed up to unlock the school, and for one, he didn't bother to tell anyone that he wasn't going to show. So I'm done with it. Saturdays are free now.
I'm going to start planning for my graduation party, because my grandparents are going on vacation in June, and I need to know if it is going to fall on the same dates. Not that I care. I would rather not have them there, but I have to invite them, because they are my grandparents. I'd like to know when everyone comes home for the summer. I don't have to worry about Northern, because they get out in May, and I don't want to have my party until the end of June. I just need to know when OSU gets out.
My parents are talking about moving once Michael gets out of school. I think that would be great, except I probably wouldn't see any of you again. They're talking about moving down to Tennessee. Who knows if it will actually happen.

I stayed home from school yesterday because I was really sick. I still have a fever, but there's no way that I'm taking exams. I still have one day that I can miss. I needed to save it, because I don't know if I will get sick next semester, and then I will have to stay for 4 mods rather than just 3.
The other day, I talked to Kathrin, and she 3-wayed the call to her "pen-pal" in California. It was really interesting. He was about as perverted as you guys. It was quite humorous.

I forgot to say that I saw T.C. on Monday at the mall, and you'll never guess who was with him. That's right, Jen was there from where ever she lives now.

I hate my life. Contest is going to suck this year. I don't think that I will go. At least with a solo. It makes me so mad. Wimmers won't do his job so the rest of us have to suffer. He has hired someone to work with all the solos and ensembles this year instead of doing it himself. Because of that, I can't meet with the guy. He only comes once a week, and it happens to be on Tuesday, the day that I have 3 classes and have to be at Northern from 3 until 7. Unless he can come to Ada, he can forget it. I e-mailed Wimmers yesterday, to tell him this, and he told me to set up a time with Nick on Tuesday. What part of I can't be there on Tuesdays can't he understand? I can't just set up a time with him. NO THAT WOULD BE TOO MUCH LIKE WORK FOR HIM!!

I went to sleep at 9:30 last night and still had trouble waking up this morning.

I just emailed Wimmers about Solo and Ensemble. I haven't been able to practice with the ensemble once, and I don't even know what my solo is supposed to be. First it was supposed to be Yellow After the Rain, then Wimmers couldn't find it and neither could Nick. Then Nick gave me some stupid piece and I don't even know the title because I couldn't read his writing. Cory Canan from Northern gave me a cool piece but I 'm not sure if it's on the contest list. And the entries had to be in a while ago so no matter what I want to do, I will have to do what they sent in for me to do. I may not even go to contest this year.

How is everyone? My life sucks as usual. Sometimes I feel like Jess, because I feel like I have a lot of drama and I complain about it a lot. It's very depressing. Lately I have had a lot of drama in my life though. It has not been a good year. My senior year is sucking so bad it's not even funny. I can't wait to get away from Ohio and hopefully Kathrin will decide to come to Lipscomb with me.

School sucks! I couldn't fall asleep last night so when I had to get up at 6 this morning, I was even more tired than I would have been anyway.
I got a book from the library today. It's so weird I don't think that I will be able to follow it. It's called a Clockwork Orange. I've heard it's good, but I can't even follow it.

I can't wait to go home today