I was talking to Kathrin and Dave last night. THat was a trip, because I was in such a weird mood. It was kind of scary, I think I was freaking a few people out. But I couldn't help it. I was so tired and had so many things on my mind.
My great grandmother died yesterday in the morning, and I didn't find out about it until almost 4 in the afternoon. I was mad about that. No one called me and told me, and I told them I would have the cell phone on.
I don't know how I'm going to make it through the school year. I know I've made it this far, and there's only 5 weeks too much, but that's 5 weeks too many. I don't even want to get out of bed in the mornings anymore. I'm always so tired, and so many things have changed in the last few weeks. I just can't take it anymore.
ANd I really can't talk to anyone here. THere's only so much you can talk about over the phone. I just want to be able to see someone who I can talk to. Everyone in school hates me, I'm not close enough to anyone at ONU to talk to them, and almost all my friends except for Maggie and Christa are at least 2 hours away. I'm sick of talking on the phone.
Seriously, I don't know how I've made it this far with no friends. I think my weird mood last night was all the stress catching up with me. I said some really stupid things talking to Kat and Dave. I'm just tired.